So here we are, midway through Blogtober and the teacher in me is stopping to reflect. When the month began, the plan was to blog 3 days/week and post to IG 3 days/week. This was a HUGE commitment, considering I hadn’t blogged consistently in over a year, but I wanted to try. There’s something fun and extra motivating about participating in a larger-than-myself event like Blogtober.
So of the potentially 7 posts I committed to, this one you’re reading makes 4. That’s 57% success. It’s a far cry from 100%, and not very close to the more balanced 80-20 rule. I could feel bad about that, but I don’t. I don’t consider it to be a big deal. I’m not sitting here wracked with guilt and anxiety over what *didn’t* happen, what I didn’t accomplish. THAT is a big deal. Why?
I have spent too much time in the last 6 years wondering if I am enough. Am I a good enough mom? A good enough wife? A good enough friend? A good enough Christian? A good enough blogger? In all that time trying to figure out who everyone wants me to be, I completely lost sight of who I actually am. My joy in life got sucked away in this vacuum of guessing.
But no more. The person I AM is good. I’m not even going to hang on to that annoying little tag of “enough”. I’m more than “good enough”. I am GOOD. No need to hide, adjust, cover, or manipulate what I am in order to fit some idealistic mold for each role I fill. I was BORN to be who I am, and denying that does ZERO service to the people in my life. I have not become a better mom by wondering what kind of mom my kids need. I am a better mom when I am ME. Same goes for every single role I play. I am a better ___________ when I am just ME.
Life is a lot easier, more fun, and a lot less stressful since I stopped trying on different masks and started being myself again. And that’s why I’m not worried about a few missed blog opportunities.
What do you need to let go of today? What worries do you keep holding on to that won’t make a bit of difference to how you actually live life today?
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